Have you ever imagined what it would be like to switch places with chimpanzees? What if God started a new show called “Life Swap,” where he removed chimps from their habitats, placed humans there instead, and let the primates take care of Earth for a while?
There are only two types of chimpanzee in the world: Pan troglodytes and Pan paniscus. I have to wonder if they would categorize us just like we have categorized them. I wonder how they would decide to differentiate us, especially if they only chose two categories. Would it be black and white? Ugly and beautiful? Aggressive and passive? Wealthy and poor? Popular and outcast? What about our homes, or our cars, or maybe our clothes? What about our diets? Vegan? Carnivore? Omnivore? Burgervore? (Tee hee). What if it is simply by where we live? Or our musical tastes? Or our recreational choices? How about Christian and unchristian? I wonder how they would decide who is Christian and who is un-Christian. Do you think they would choose outward appearance? What about social interactions? They might choose private behavior.
I remember the months both preceding and proceeding my spiritual awakening. I remember all of my misconceptions about the Christian lifestyle. I remember thinking that since a change occurred on the inside, a change needed to occur on the outside. I remember deciding for myself that the change needed to be my image.
At Autauga Academy, seventh and eighth grade classes are required to take a Bible class as an elective for both semesters. Aside from the children’s Bible on my bookshelf, with extra large print and illustrations on practically every other page, I had never had my own copy of God’s Word. I panicked a little bit when I realized how un-cool it would be for a 13 year old to carry around a children’s Bible in a school building where seniors were present. However, Mom came through for me; she had an old paperback NIV that was suitable, though I did find the cover a little girly. Needless to say, my distaste for the cover art and teenage neglect created a Bible-by-volume effect that left me Scripture-less by December. In haste, on my way to a basketball game in Montgomery, I stopped at a bookstore, grabbed a blue, hardback TNIV, handed it to my mom, and then got in the car. I did stop and think, “Maybe I should read it first.” So I flipped to Matthew, read the red-letter text to make sure the book had some red ink in it because I thought, “That’s what all good Christians have,” and then I decided it would work.
A few years later, I had another Bible “crisis.” After God revealed to me how spiritually dead I was, I thought “Well, I guess that was caused, in part, by not having a Christian-looking Bible.” See, all my friends whom I knew to be followers of Christ had Bibles not only with red-letter text, but also leather covers. I thought, “I need to find a leather Bible. Not anything big, but something that can fit in my back pocket. But it has to have all 66 books.” So, I hopped in the truck and headed to Books-A-Million (you guys can pay me for product placement later). I headed straight to the “Christian Living” section, found the Bibles, and began a thorough examination of all the books on the shelves. I decided I wanted a leather, red-letter, pocket-sized NIV. After a few minutes, I found one that met all my physical criteria, so I cracked it open where the silk bookmark was and began to read about Peter’s miraculous escape from prison in Acts 12. After reading, I checked the price tag, which valued the book at a ridiculously exorbitant amount. I didn’t care. I said, “This is God’s word, right? It’s priceless. This is a good deal.” So, after paying $27.86 for my “Christian” Bible, I exited as a satisfied young man.
I think it goes without saying that it did not make me a “better” Christian. It didn’t make me look more Christian. In fact, it probably made people wonder, “What the heck is he cramming in his back pocket? Is that a steel plate? Is he afraid something’s going to bite his butt, like Forest Gump?”
After a few months, I decided that I didn’t like the leather Bible, so I started using the blue Bible, which I still use today. Of course, I had one more incident. I spent $13, 2 gallons of gas, and 60 minutes finding a “Christian” Bible cover. “Hi, my name is Matt Golson, and I’m a recovering Bibleholic.”
I remember thinking that if I was going to change my physical appearance, I’d have to get some different threads. I never actually committed to it, but I entertained the thought of getting flannel. Lots of flannel. Not the old man flannel either. I wanted the “I’m-a-cool,-hip,-popular,-Christian flannel.” If I remember correctly, the people on the cover of “EC” were my starting point. I figured if I could dress more like them and less like me, people would be able to tell Christ changed me, without me having to do anything to show them. If I was the ultimate Christian, I’d be a Kris Allen with red hair.
I remember at youth group a few weeks ago, I felt less Christian because I did not know the words to a song. Usually the laptop and projector are set up so the lyrics can be displayed to help everyone follow along with the band. However, the computers at the church office crashed earlier that day, so I had no guide. This was not the first time I had felt less Christian because I had not spent enough time on christianlyrics.com, but it was the most recent. I remember thinking, “I wonder what they think when they see me mumbling words instead of actually singing along. I bet if they looked at my iPod they would expect to see nothing but Kanye West, Eminem, and My Chemical Romance on the ‘Most Played’ list.”
I remember various Sunday services and how I did not feel like a good Christian because I wasn’t raising my hand during the music, or putting anything in the offering plate, or filling out a connect card, or focusing during the message, or remembering to speak to someone after the service, or…
If chimps are as smart as biologists believe them to be, they would use the Bible to classify people as Christian and unchristian.
It is so perplexing how powerful the enemy is. For a long time I let materialism, insecurity, and pride plague my spiritual life (and unfortunately, I still do). All of the things I thought I was doing to become a “better” Christian were actually distracting me from being a true follower of Christ. Flannel shirts don’t make me more available to the Holy Spirit. Song lyrics don’t atone for my sin. Scripture in a book is not the same as Scripture in the heart.
I urge you, open up your Bible, no matter what it looks like, no matter what you look like. Read Matthew 5-7, or Galatians, or Ephesians, or Philippians, or Corinthians, or Genesis, or Ruth, or any other book; there’re 66 of them. We are not meant to look Christian, we are meant to be Christian! Each one of us is supposed to be a miniature Jesus, copying Him in every way we possibly can. Read the gospels. Tell me, how many times does Jesus say, “If you want to follow me, you have to have a leather Bible and an extensive knowledge of music about me. And if you sign on in the next seven minutes, I’ll throw in a free flannel shirt,”?
Please, don’t spend your life trying to look like a Christian; spend your life being a Christian! Whether or not you realize it, this life is our chance to prepare for eternity. Why spend it pretending? Why spend it only appearing to be something you are not? Delight in God; He will give you the desires of your heart!
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” John 10:10